Giving advice to your past
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Posted:Dec 25, 2014 5:25 pm
Last Updated:Jan 26, 2015 9:12 am
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So I was working on some homework early this morning with the television on of course when I heard something that caught my attention, I stopped what I was doing and listened to the conversation as the following question was being discussed. I found that they question was thought provoking as one could go in so many different directions with the answer that they choose.
If you had the opportunity to go back in time and give yourself one bit of advice what would it be and why.?
Even though I have thought about this question over the last couple of hours I am choosing to revel the first thought that came to my mind, I would tell my younger self to be true to myself, who I am, and what I believe in. If someone does not like me because I am not who they want me to be then they should not be in my life. To many people want to be what they thing that they should be and not who they really are. I did fall into that category for much of my life. I spent much of my life in the latter category and was never happy and couldn't figure out why.
When I started on this new path beginning with the move to New Mexico I can't really say that I was thinking all of that in my head, however I knew that I not only wanted but needed something different in my life. I had always thought of myself as a strong independent woman who could conquer the world and yet when reality finally set in I was suddenly alone and it was like I lost who I was. There was suddenly this emptiness within me that I didn't know was there. I was ready to run out there and find something or more likely someone who could fill up that hole.
All of a sudden it was like a warmth came over my spirit and calmed me as the realization of knowing that finding a person, a hobby, or even a habit was never going to fill that emptiness I felt within. Any of those choices would just lead me down a path that would result in continuing to repeat the past. My eyes were open and I decided that I was going to change that past, I did not know how but I was going to change it. Thus my journey of self-discovery and healing began a little over two years ago. It has been difficult to look at myself truthfully, looking honestly at the things that I didn’t like about myself accepting that I have made mistakes. I have learned to let things go, to not carry guilt that is not my own. And most importantly to forgive myself for not being true to who I am.
I now know that whether I am all alone or I am wrapped tightly within your arms that I will be okay, and that is because I know who I am. I no longer need for someone to be in my life, I just want them in my life Very empowering I must say. So with that said, I don’t live with regret that I was unable to truly tell my younger self to live this way all these years but instead to be thankful that I now have that knowledge of self-worth and I figured it out all on my own.
Well I hope that this simple yet thought provoking question can give you some insight within yourself as well. Merry Christmas!!!
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