the truth of my life
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Posted:Aug 15, 2021 12:28 am
Last Updated:May 15, 2024 5:31 am
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I have come to terms that i am good enough to make it in this earth a piece of my heart is with my man and i carry his weight and mine i am so happy i am tickled pink over him as mine and his relationship get stronger that is the only thing that matters to me because if he is happy i am happy ........
I know i have talked alot on here in the past now just getting you all back in liking me again as a person not a piece of fuck meat...
i just am like the truth well have to come out about things on my life sooner or later
truth be told I have been waiting a long time for a relationship i am in now for 13 years now and i have to say he turns me on he all i think about he has his way with words but the facts is this is true love .............
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dont get mad be happy
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Posted:Aug 14, 2021 10:04 pm
Last Updated:May 15, 2024 5:31 am
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DONT get mad at over being off the singles games and mind games i got tried of the lies humans lied many many times here in kentucky that is why i am moving out of the state for a brighter future of myself and my man ..
i am here make friends that is it because that is i need is support from my peers and help if i can confessed on something i can blog about it if i need
i love my day job of blogging about things in my head that i need get out or talking about a subject free my mind of things
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the truth
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Posted:Aug 14, 2021 9:54 pm
Last Updated:May 15, 2024 5:31 am
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the truth with my self and here it goes
I might not be perfect i do not always understand humans in their actions but my acts is hell a lot better than most humans i know in my area in Kentucky so out of everyone in Kentucky never wanted never wanted anything do with that is fine i found a man out of state... he was apost be my daddy and it turned in a relationship 4 days later.. together of 4 months..
i am happy and feel better than ever i am thinking more clearer on things he helps remember things or something of that nature he got my back and i got his back. type of deal relationship and i am happy with my choice. because he works got his own car own house and more so what else do i need yes he is about spoil and i dont know how take it. but i think he is buying my love which i dont care that is him.. and i know my place as a female submissive by nature dominate by choice. so I hope that we click when he comes get .. i don't know what he is getting next month for my birthday. but it is going be epic gifts...
it is about time i have a real man in my life share with i deserve it after years of waiting my mr.right i fineally found him and when we get together we going to have so much sex i will not need any other men in my life but my soon to be husband. he is the only man i want because he is enough for me because i only want him sorry guys i am taken by a great man that is going to take care of me and I to take care of him doing the dishes cleaning cooking messages for him i will treat him like a king and he is going to treat me like his queen. that is that ..
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the mood tonight
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Posted:Aug 14, 2021 9:01 pm
Last Updated:May 15, 2024 5:31 am
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i am in a good mood tonight maybe because i ask my man for help today with something i was needing then i talked to him for a while this morning but he is always busy working his ass off and i am grateful for my man ... he knows i am a blogger and a gamer artist detailer and intelligent enough to know what is good for me in my life but some people is just downright ungrateful about life and victims of something the time and they're making the news downright stupid.... if you ask me.
but i will tell you right now i am going back do tattoo's again and this time i am going to be better than i ever had because i want to start a business in the near futrue to make my money the illegal way.. cash in hand time . home base busniess and i want my soon be husband be the boss of it... already got a picked out..
and i love my man he is i think about from daylight dark skies he is the beat of my heart i hear his voice in the wind has it touches my face the rain is the tears he cries has the storms set inlet the wind of power of change help you understand your lives for nor of the sins you comment in your lifes god is the one that judges us in some way or another.
so nor do i judge upon us or others because it has gone far in life stop the power within as i seek the power to open my mind let see it in a brighter picture because of terms in life is there for reasons of the state of mind that if you were insane or sane or mental or mentally unstable it is facts i am mental unstable but stable enough be around others but sometimes it is hard that is why i am a homebody type person buy what i need online instead of going stores now and days ... can't just trust anyone anymore like the normals there acting weird doing stupid shay shit. \
because none of them has got the covid-19 shot and here i am and took two there motherfuckers and i am fine little fever and cold chills but they do say to get plate of sleep when you take them my arm ever got to sore but it did hurt for 4 days though .... take the shot and safe your lifes.
because see it is august now and i get sick every year in the spring-summer and fall. i took that covid -19 shot i am not sick anymore just all allergies that is it ..
so i hope you all like my blogging of things becaus i will love to blog with you i know some is longer than they should when i start typing i can't stop
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so i know i haven't been on in a while
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Posted:Aug 14, 2021 6:34 pm
Last Updated:May 15, 2024 5:31 am
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here is what has been happening with i am in a serious relationship now with the greats guy in the world..
and I have been busy with mental health appointments and doctor appointments and stuff but I am still doing well even if i took my breaks from life ..
and i have type 2 diabetics now and that stuff but i have been a diet lose some of my weight i have lost the total of 29 pounds so far
I will be moving soon enough but dont know when yet i will be moving in with my man he is the greatest thing ever happen to me.. he has made me see things in life differently then i did he makes me happy... we been dating 4 months long distance relationship ....
but other than that i am fine if you wondered what is with sorry haven't posted in a minute but texts calls emails and work has must of my time and i am getting my old job back as a tattooist an body piercer my man is going to help me get things i need like tattoo kits ink papers and body piercing kits and more and he told me if when i get to where i am getting doing the tattoos to my liking he is going to help me start a home base bussniess in tattooing ..... god damn i love this man to death he is my everything
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so here it goes again
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Posted:Apr 26, 2021 2:39 pm
Last Updated:May 15, 2024 5:31 am
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I just think about things alot and overthink of getting hurt again been hurt many times and i guess just scared . really on things
but on the other hand i could be going out having fun but cops though they see me out they will follow me if i go the big cities it sucks i can't have much fun i would end up in the mental ward on something stupid again or in jail and not done nothing get in trouble ..
but all and all I am a homebody gamer type and blogger and listen music i do have mental illness that is broadline personally disorder mood disorder anixety stress disorder ocd adhd major depression psychoactive disorder and ptsd
and I live life the fullest and not let losers or trolls or haters get in my way
i say whatever and go on my way.
but life is harder for than others because i am shy of a person come out in person of what i really want in life because i am afraid of get hit by a man..
god damn every time
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hey everyone i know it has been awhile
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Posted:Apr 24, 2021 2:18 pm
Last Updated:Apr 26, 2021 2:40 pm
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so alot has changed with me and fineally on the right meds now plus 420 and meds and cbd helps me in more ways then one
and i was just wondering if you all missed me or not lol and today been doing my braids again black an green now and i think i am going to keep this style for a while ...
I just have been going though alot with things ... but other than that I am doing fine fighting my battles with mental illness but other than that I have been okay some days and some days is like fuck it not today and sleep 24 hours lol
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happy go lucky type of day
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Posted:May 18, 2020 4:25 am
Last Updated:May 15, 2024 5:31 am
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I am so happy with my choices now and when i wake up like at 1am and go back to sleep i think of things going on in my mind .. has i scan my dreams and remember them it is a miracle that i remember them
so i redone my hair and for some reason all the hair i took out to wash my real hair I had to in almost 3 months so even though i washed my hair I need to redo them because my real hair growed 2 inches and need some tlc so I took them all out and i had 6 picece of hair and 20 braids in each pack.. and i had all 6 packs in but when i started putting them back in something weird happened 3 packs did my hair that friday I took them out and let my real hair an skin on my head relax for awhile like 9 hours with out them in.. then at saturday morning at 1am till 4 am i was working on putting my braids back in so i finished my hair yesterday but 3 packs did my whole head and i was like i still have half a bag of braids and i was like wtf how did i have all that hair in my head 2 months ago..... so i surprised myself and teasing everyone with my bangs on how long they are now ...
so I am proud of myself that i am my own personal hair dresser and if i mess up try an try again..
so i am doing good and i am in a freindship relationship right now and i am so happy that he wants only me that is hard to find anymore.... he makes me get butterflies in my belly
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happy go lucky
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Posted:May 16, 2020 8:03 am
Last Updated:May 15, 2024 5:31 am
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i just am tried of alot of things because i can't choice someone be in my life so it is wtf you know I am just tried of lieing ass men boys that pisses me off the wrost way because they that is all they want or a so
what do you do nothing because you can't change a an females
so how do you stay away from liers in relationship already I can read a face picture and now what there about wanking and fucking all there whores that want them
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well here i go
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Posted:May 15, 2020 9:16 pm
Last Updated:May 15, 2024 5:31 am
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so I have been thinking for a couple of days because i am having gut feels about some stuff and I dont know if i should trust them or not because I know when someone is cheating on me and not telling me the truth because long distances relationships never work out in the end it has been proven 3 months talking with someone and he doesn't seem like he wants me but that is okay I am still going to be happy and enjoy life because I am changing in my thought patterns because i am not going to let myself get hurt because I have a right to be happy......
so really in reality guys just talk to me because there bored in life and at there work and i think that isn't right to do to someone because here is the thing playing mind games really you all have some one in your lifes and friends i don't so why do humans do me that way for i think it is straight up bullshit with there games and lie to me i will never understand the human races anymore to many lies to me so maybe I might get in a relationship with someone real and not fake
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well
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Posted:May 15, 2020 5:11 am
Last Updated:May 15, 2024 5:31 am
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well the thing is I was thinking about things right now and i am glad that i found someone in my life now and he is a lucky man because i can open up him and thank god for the smiles and hearts and faces huh on cell phones lol my life is getting better for good but I will be glad when the lockdown is over because I want be with my man I can't take this shit anymore......................
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me finding a relationship
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Posted:May 9, 2020 3:32 am
Last Updated:May 15, 2024 5:31 am
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it isn't going happen because men is whores and that is all the all seek because see i have been looking off and on for years now and i try but nothing works just men talking because there bored and nothing else do and it is pissing off at times and i am done with the stupid shit i just nobody wants me and i have no sex life and the more i think about things it makes me have bad dreams..
so I think of what is wrong me or them but still nothing it breaks my heart knowing i am going be single for the rest of my life and without sex life
so for years i have learn expect it because that is what it feels like bullshit is what it is
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how i feel like chit
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Posted:May 8, 2020 4:01 pm
Last Updated:May 15, 2024 5:31 am
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why is it everytime something starts to happen it fucks up everything because right now this is allergie season pollen in the air hay fever and more the covid -19 is fake because some of the people aka humans is so funny sometimes there nerve faces and actions speak louder than words so I am giving up on things again because when i want to go hang out with a guy friend then all hell breaks lose so I am over it there going to have me live once in my life without drama fighting and chit you know....
not into the ruff an forced bullshit .... I say to myself couldn't controlled if they try but sometimes it get scarey in kentucky sometimes I just and like what the fuck
but I always ask myself sometimes why can't i find anyone why am i the only one without a real manor sex life and i am getting fed up with lies drama and bs because here i feel like i can open up with you all because i have nobody else to talk to ......
still hard for me at 35 but if i was 16 or 18 or 19 or 20's i would be married but men like little girls
so with that said i am 100% right because facebook well is something i am not into but i have a facebook to talk to family an friends that is it..................
i just have so much to talk about i am really shy in person because if i dont know you i will not speak to much because to many judgemental people aka humans
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