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a bit It is 9:43am.... it is nearly time for me to be sleeping, but I had a bit of a nap last night. I feel guilty for sleeping in the night these days. What the fuck? I feel guilty for sleeping at NIGHT??? Something is very wrong in my life.... The last time I had sex was sometime before Christmas.... I don't remember the exact date and time.... I just know it has been a while. It was with a friend who I'd hoped things would escalate..... They did not. I did however learn that a man will show you how he values you by the time he chooses to spend with you. Remember that.....because he will come back around for the sex. He will make you feel important and missed... Then when it comes to those days you want to spend time together, he will be off doing other things. When you are important, you will feel important. Sex is so much better when there is a reason to be doing it. I have been single for 8 years now..... I am a kind, loving, affectionate, sane, non drug using, home owning, capable, smart enough, takes care of herself kinda girl.... and yet .... no one asks me out. I know that my weird hours and life complicate that.... I've got to the point I am scared to put myself out there. Even when life was not about night shift... no one asked me out. I keep wondering what is wrong with me. I know I am not beautiful, hot or any of those things.... but I've seen "My 500 pound life".... and none of those people are single. What the actual fuck? I have my flaws... my body didn't endure pregnancy well.... it shows. I am fine being single.... I will be fine being single. I just wish it was 100% by choice at this point. I am so ready to share some good times with a friend.... one that I want to kiss,<b> flirt </font></b>with. I want to surprise my person.... with touches, loves, and things that feel good. It leaves me wondering how and what makes me so undesirable. |
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Dating at our age seems broke. These online sites seems more like a social game where everyone wants to collect likes or views for their validation, but not try to converse much and never really want to meet. Try to ask someone out and you get ghosted, never to get another response. Night shift is weird. I started nights mid-March. It took me a couple weeks before I could get a full days sleep, 9am-5pm. I still sort of reset on weekends. Tonight is gone to be long with going back after the memorial day weekend, it was a 4 day weekend as the company wanted to shut down Friday at 5pm and so no swing or night shift. Maybe pack a second Rockstar energy drink....
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I want to meet  .
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1 post 6/12/2019 10:09 pm |
I wanna kik it reply
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Very well said Mimi, nobody wants to be alone. I think its about timing , and finding someone who respects your time, as much as you do his. Time will come.
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Miss you Mimi, please check your kik
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