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2014 The year that was
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2014 The year that was Grumble gnashing of teeth…., I posted a hello to all my friends and the first half has disappeared into the black cyber hole, so here go again: It is that time f year again.... The beginning of the New Year 2015 I have written out my NY's resolutions, burnt the paper, put the ashes into a plastic bag and took it to the ocean where I let the breeze bow the ashes into mother Ocean, I stayed on the beach to meditate as a beautiful red sun peeped over the horizon and ten in all her beauty spread her rays over the land. This tie of year also has me take stock of my life and the year just departed. 2014 had some high and some lows, but overall I have a good life with good friends both here in Oz and overseas. I am a fortunate woman I have a roof over my heed, food on the table, an awesome , friends, and a new direction for 2015. So here goes what I am grateful for and feel so blessed First... Irena and Cath, we have been friends for so many years, I have been with you both during the good times and the bad, when we were t speaking, and when we made up again, but through it all I do not think we stopped caring for each other. It gave me so much pleasure when I heard you were gating married, it is so hard in this world to find the one and hold on to them. You both humble me with your friendship, care being there for me , being my friend when I returned home so ill and so despondent. You made me laugh and helped me on my road to recovery. We have been there fir each other when ones we loved no longer loved us. You put up with my eccentricities, my temper tantrums, so many things my dear friend...thank you for caring for me warts and all Sarah, I so admire you and adore you as a sister even though we have never met. Both army wives you much longer than I. You fight the red tape little men to make sure your babies get the best care and attention. Taking on losing weight and sticking to it, becoming half the woman you weighed...so proud of you. Going back to school to get a good job to help your family have a good life, another reason I admire you. Your artistic talents, arts and crafts, and like me and Dale have the gift, not always a gift but sometimes feels like a curse. To be able to speak about our gift and know I/we will not be laughed at or derided. To speak with one who knows the cost of our gift, as well as the happiness it brings us when we succeed. Thank you for being my friend/llil sister... adore you sweetheart. Josepha (J0), the Goddess was smiling down on me when you became my neighbour, and over the years we developed a deep and caring friendship, you taught me how to make canoles, make my own pasta, many different varieties, a good Italian loaf of bread. The invitations and acceptance of your family of me at all the family gatherings, Christmas, Eater, Weddings, Christenings, funerals and just the Sunday family get together. You gave me a new family to replace my other family I have now lost to the Grim Reaper. Our days of working in your veggie patch together, the endless cups of coffee while we sorted out world problems or what movies to go and see. Love you Jo and give thanks every day for you being in my life. Bill, you are such a joy to know, the time you give to your fellow vets, your caring nature and reaching out your hand to help. I have watched fascinated as over the years your<b> photography </font></b>has developed , the pictures you share with me sometimes bring me to tears they are so beautiful. The majesty of your beloved mountains, the amazing photos of siders, beetles, flowers and the amazing animals who roam the province you call home. You became the big brother I always wanted, the hours we spent chatting on the internet, sometimes flirting and teasing each other, but always there was a respect and affection there...... thank you bill your friendship makes my heart sing. Rob, smiles, the chats we have had on yahoo, the face to face chats...grins as I remember... Swapping ideas on house renovating, getting ideas from each other, talking over a problem with a part of the renovation. Again like Irena, you were always there giving me strength and support when I went through bad times, never judging me, offering good advice and just being my friend.... Rob our years together have been wonderful, we have never met, but I feel so close to you.... thank you my friend, I hope we will be friends for many years to come Tony, you came into my life, when I had accepted that there would be no man in my future, you made me feel special, almost beautiful. You bought calmness to my soul. The time we spent together, weather it was just chatting, watching TV or a DVD sipping wine, Cooking a meal for you, and out times hidden away in our own little world when I closed my bedroom door. Tony you bought back to life both my heart and my body. Laughing and oh my god, all the stuffed toys you kept bringing me, it gave you so much pleasure, I did not have the heart to tell you they were not my favourite thing smiles again. Loved how you ere intelligent and as well travelled as I, that you had experienced things as I had, see the worst of what man can do to man, but also the beauty of the people in Somalia, Zimbabwe and the middle East. Then you were gone, no explanation, no word just disappeared from my life, you took the sunshine with you and broke and shattered my heart into a thousand pieces. I am still raw and hurt, but I know in time the pain will disappear and I will only remember you as a good kind and passionate lover/man. Rick what I can say, if we had met 15 years ago, if we lived on the same land mass what a coupe we would have been. Rick when I think of you I see a man I would be content to grow old with, with twin rocking chairs on our veranda holding hands and chatting. Our time together Rick reminds me so of my mum and dad, they still held hands whenever they went out till the day my father passed away. I have always said the most exotic and sensual organ in the human body is the brain. Your brain is amazing dear heart, your knowledge f so many different subjects, from trivia, to politics, movies, Geography, US and world history... you amaze me. Your loving heart, patience, your instant forgiveness when I have hurt you through a thoughtless act, or meanness you open your arms and welcome me home again. You just reach out and enfold me in your arms and kiss me softly. Rick you humble me with your humanity, Oh do not worry I do not see you through roe coloured glasses, I know you have faults, but your other attributes makes up for your warts 10 times over. Thank you Rick you know how I feel about you and always will. Dale, Hello sister o my soul, we are so alike in many ways, our childhoods, things that have happened to us, our shared gift/curse. That you offered me your friendship has always made me so happy. That we became so close that we think of ourselves as sisters. We live in different countries and yet, I feel you so close to me, I know you know when I am in pain just as I known when it happens to you. It brought joy to my heart when you met your Sir and it developed into a love, you now share so much and you are both working towards your dream property and business, you will make it, you are a strong determined woman who deserves to finally get all her heart desires.... Hoping 2015 brings you and all your loved ones nothing but happiness, and goals achieved... love you Sis Charlie, what an amazing and giving woman you are, and we are friends, smiling, we have been through ups and downs together and again we live on different continents, have not met one another face to face and most probably never will, but that has not affected our friendship , we both know we will be there for each other when ever we are needed. Thank you for offering me your friendship, I will treasure it as the rare jewel that it is. Megan, my love, my life by beautiful , the moment the nurse put you in my arms I loved you with all my heart and made a promise to try and protect you, make you independent, string and tolerant. I know I was not the average mum and caused you embarrassment at times but my love there was method to my madness, by inviting you to spend time with my friends, many of who were gay, bi, transsexual, alternative life stylers was my way of letting you know and understand no matter we and who we are most people are the same under the skin . Taking you to controversial movies, stage plays, letting you learn and understand and accept those amongst us who are different. When you came and asked to go and live in Melbourne to pursue your acting aspirations, I wanted to wrap you in my arms and say know, wanting you to stay with me. Instead I fought with your grandparents to give you the money they had been saving from the day you were born. Finally I was able t make them understand if we did not let you go you would resent us and in the end we would lose you. You have come a long way from those days, you have over the years, grown into articulate women, caring, intelligent, strong, independent, a woman I am so proud to call my . Now you have met the man you wish to spend the rest of your life with, I am so happy, as when we speak I can hear the happiness and love in your voice. I love you Megs, you are the reason I still walk this earth... Love you little one I have during my life been fortunate to meet and work with some amazing people, they have been in part responsible for, interesting life I have lived...to you all thank you. 
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