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Preserving Modesty
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Preserving Modesty It's back for a bit anyway; I'm almost tempted to change the title of my blog to the header of this post simply because it tends to be the two words nobody on this site particularly wants to hear. (Why in the world I would take such perverse glee in that, I have no idea) I've fallen out of the bloggy thing for a while; life has had a few twisty turns thrown in of late that hasn't made me exceptionally conducive to gravitation towards creative expression. My stress level has been high for the last few months ...at a time when one might think I would NEED the outlet has been where I've shied away. So we'll see what this next chapter will bring. For a quick catch-up on the bullet points of my life: -single, never married -doesn't work, lives with his mom -loves sci-fi and comic stuff (eg: huge nerd/geek) -drives a car older than many of the members here -once upon a time, was a huge computer geek but the 21st century is overtaking my ambition in that area. Once again, I have to mention the somewhat perverse glee I take in highlighting those particular attributes. Self-depreciation is something of an art form with me, and so I have to get my yuks where I can. You gotta admit that in any case, that list is a caricature waiting to happen. If you were to go back a ways in this very blog, you would find that once upon a time I was a happy bachelor, living in a perfectly reasonable apartment with my really rotten dog. I took pride in my lack of cooking skills and utter disregard for conventional housekeeping. I once joked about how I'd be homeless before I ever moved in with my parents again, so the present set of circumstance has made a liar out of me on so many levels I barely even know where to begin. Single, never married Yeah, that much is true although I was in an 8-year relationship that only lacked the piece of paper. I'm kind of big on my privacy ...I didn't have much of it as a , and I'm in a position again where it's beginning to lack again. Doesn't work True enough ...I'm disabled and on disability; no missing limbs or anything, but I never know if I'm over or understating things so I prefer to just not say anything until asked. lives with Mom Yes, but as a caregiver in the larger sense ...she has cancer, and it's starting to gain on her. I'm now a cook and housekeeper as well as chauffeur. The rest mostly stands on its own. Old car: bought it in the early 90's, spent three years restoring it after leaving it parked for nearly 5 years (I recently gave away my other car after Mom gave up driving completely last year). Sci-fi geek: proud of it, although I don't even come close to "Big Bang Theory" level of nerd-ism. So yeah. It may be time to re-vamp my profile and start writing a bit again even though there isn't much chance of doing anything more than writing. I'm in a piss-poor position of knowing the only way of that changing any time soon is when my mother passes ...so best to just not go there. So here I am again. About Mom: 81 years old, stage 3 (possibly 4 now) cancer, up until two weeks ago she still worked part time ...about when I stopped writing the last time was about the point that she really didn't have much business working anymore, but did anyway. It was also about the point that her chemo started taking a downward turn and her mental health began to suffer. ...and then last week she fell and broke her right wrist. Sucks for sure, but it was sort of the reason I moved in with her in the first place. The thought of that sort of thing happening with nobody around was the driving force behind the pressure for me to move in with her in the first place. The broken arm has really mucked things up. She's now going to be forced to leave her job; my siblings and I have been trying to nudge her in that direction for a while, but now circumstances have forced ...umm, her hand. My sister comes by every other day to help her bathe ...so as I sit here and write my blog on an adult site, an active concern within my family is preserving my mothers modesty. Oh yeah ...did I mention that my father was a Baptist minister his entire career, all three sons are atheist, but the only is an evangelical Christian to the right of Sarah Palin on the political compass? ...cue the Addams family theme music now. (and I've barely scratched the surface of all the ways we put the "fun" in "dysfunctional") So I guess I'm here again for a while whilst I try to work through some of the "stuff" ahead. I suspect there is going to be plenty of it. |
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