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Growing up knowing you are female....PART 1
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Growing up knowing you are female....PART 1 I was hoping that by this time,,that I could have connected with someone on here so I could lean on their shoulder and get this burden off my chest..I have kept this transformation to myself for a lifetime and only shared it with one other person and now she is not in my life any longer..So will have to share it with everyone. Even before I started to school I wished I was a woman and wondered why I wasn't..Trying on my mothers clothes and sneaking her stockings and panties into my dresser,,,hid under some other things..Waiting till everyone was busy and getting them out,,,feeling the fabric and trying them on.. I wore panties under my clothes for years..Only not wearing them to shop for clothes with the family or going to school..Beginning in high school I bought a wig,,bras,,heels and make-up..I experimented with styles and looks..Paying attention to the girls in school on how they applied the make-up,,,I became pretty good with it.. I bloomed late as far as genitals was concerned,,but my voice never changed,,if anything,,, it got higher..Being a junior in school I began to develop pubic hair and my nipples became larger and more sensitive..My breasts actually started to grow a little and my waist slendered,, with my hips widening and butt protruding out..I was horrified...How was I going to hide this and what was going on?.I was scared to death and worried straight for two years,,hoping no one would find out..Lucky for me,,gym class was for the first 2 years of high school and I was done with that..I couldn't go to the doctor,,everyone would find out,,,I just hid it the best I could.. The summer after high school I was preparing for college..I made up my mind then that I was going to be a woman..Lucky for me that I had a first name that would work for male or female..So after moving into the dorm,,(I brought with me women's clothing),,,I changed into them and never wore men's clothing again.. I went to women's restrooms,,,I showered in women's showers,(usually real early in the morning or late at night to avoid people),,and was easily accepted into the womanhood..No one said anything or hinted that I was male.. By this time,,my breasts were a good solid B-cup and with me wearing low cut tops,,,no one questioned it..I had no beard,,,(never have shaved),,chest hair,,butt crack hair or any of the things that other t-girls struggle with,,only pubes.. It seemed like I was the only person on earth,,no one to talk to about it or even show..Deep down,,,I was tickled to death,,,I was getting my biggest wish ever.. I think I will end here and pick this up later if any one is interested.  |
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2/26/2010 5:07 pm |
Thats an amazing story girl. I think you made the right choice for sure!!!! I like the picture too........
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I know that I did,,,it was always my dream,,,but also,,there wasn't anything else for me to do..I am happy and well ajusted..No regrets..
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Jez,,,thank you.
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You were actually very fortunate as it sounds like nature played a big role in allowing you to choose.That's a blessing in disguise.
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Yes it was. I have never shaved my face,or had any body hair other than pubic (which is light) and a little underarm hair,but with thick head hair and started out being a heavy B-cup naturally. To be truthful,I think I have a hormone imbalance.I am afraid to get tested,there may be a cure for it (if there is something wrong) and I don't know what I would do,choose to stay the same or would the treatment make me "feel" like a guy,would I want to do that?Would my girlfriend treat me or love me any differently?.Too much to think about..Hugs...Candi
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Hope you would stay the same. It is very refreshing. So have you never taken any hormones? I am considering starting soon....Jen
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Non at all,,,I don't think I need them,,I am happy right here...Hugs...Candi
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You certainly don't need them. It is meant to be and you are a gorgeous you. Lucky girl!.... Jen
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candi sweety its so great to hear ur story kisssses+warm hugs hunnnn ...
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