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Life in General! Hello Everyone! I have a little bit of a dilema here, and not sure what I should do! I was born and raised in New York, but because of certain circumstances (which are much too long to discuss) I needed to leave fast so I moved to Pennsylvania in 1991. When I came here, I found a completely different world from the one I had in New York. I left everything that I loved in NY (, family and friends) I started here with nothing. It was quiet and lonely here, I had one friend since she is the one that helped me get here, but my friend had a very big family and I did not want to intrude in her life trying to get my life back together. After being here for 2 months I finally got a job and it was a great thing because I was down to my last 20 bucks in my pocket. My family knew nothing of my wear-abouts and I couldn't tell anyone anything! The years past. I visited my as much as I could without anyone still knowing where I lived or what I was doing in my life. For the first 6 years that I lived here I worked 2 jobs 7 days a week aprox 80-100 hours per week so I could get back on my feet. It took me 10 years to buy my own home, It was hard and I mean really really hard but I did it...On Sept 11, 2001 It was my closing date on the house....My first house and it was all mine without any help from anyone. At this time I had a man in my life but, did not want any help from him, actually I would not accept any help from any man. With alot of work and money spent, the years passed again. It is now 2007...wow can't believe I have been here since 1991 (16 years). My house might not be a mansion but it is my castle and It is mine. The thing is though. I am not happy! My are grown (Boy 25 and Girl 23) My parents are still in NY and my lives there. My lives with her boyfriend in Pennsylvania. I still feel lonely and want to go back to NY. Might seem dumb but even though I am older I feel like I am missing something. My parents are up there in age, Mom is not doing to well and I feel that I should help some how for all the years that I missed with them. Am I thinking wrong, or should I just try and find someone in my life and live in peace? I can return to NY because the reason I left is no longer there! I would like some opinions. Am I just thinking this way out of guilt? Or am I just feeling like life is passing me by?   |
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Thanks for reading my blog, yes my daughter could live her while I am in NY. I have mended things with my family in the last 5 years so there is really no strain as far as family. I guess it is more my fears of just living there even though reason I left is gone!
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10/15/2007 9:01 pm |
Fear is a emotion which stunts growth and living. The only way i know of in over coming it is straight through it with purpose. If there is quilt.... then that to will weigh heavy on you later. may i suggest a extended holiday visit, this may clear the doubts and clear those emotions up. We need people in our lives that know were we come from and what we are about, who better than family? Many Hugs & More
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Fear is a emotion which stunts growth and living. The only way i know of in over coming it is straight through it with purpose. If there is quilt.... then that to will weigh heavy on you later. may i suggest a extended holiday visit, this may clear the doubts and clear those emotions up. We need people in our lives that know were we come from and what we are about, who better than family? Many Hugs & More
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10/27/2007 9:34 am |
You have root there in NY.I don't think you feel guilty about moving back.Mom Dad my father died in 99 and i felt very much.My mom got hit by a drunk driver one mile from home in 06.She has 13 aces two story home,and can't walk or very little.I drive up there every mos.I live in SC and she in VA.I want to move back.I've got my last one going to collage this year in Pittsburgh PA.Do what right for you.Stop feeling guilt, it's just love you have for them.You want to give back.I agree with what the other have told you.(And sorry but don't know where els to put this but thank you for posting,you said what i and a lot of other have said,we won't put up with that.You sound great and have worked hard keep going.My brain where i hang ear on both side.Good luck.
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You have root there in NY.I don't think you feel guilty about moving back.Mom Dad my father died in 99 and i felt very much.My mom got hit by a drunk driver one mile from home in 06.She has 13 aces two story home,and can't walk or very little.I drive up there every mos.I live in SC and she in VA.I want to move back.I've got my last one going to collage this year in Pittsburgh PA.Do what right for you.Stop feeling guilt, it's just love you have for them.You want to give back.I agree with what the other have told you.(And sorry but don't know where els to put this but thank you for posting,you said what i and a lot of other have said,we won't put up with that.You sound great and have worked hard keep going.My brain where i hang ear on both side.Good luck.
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Thanks Vince for writing to my blog and your welcome!
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i am speechless
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Remember the ole Eagles song gal, "Take it easy." ~  ~
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JKH, yes I certainly do!
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Yes, sometimes I do feel as though life is passing me by. As soon as the holidays are over I am going to make an effort to find me a good man!...LOL I also wish you the best of luck in whatever it is that your looking for!
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12/26/2007 9:40 am |
Life is not a rehearsal. Follow your heart.
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Life is not a rehearsal. Follow your heart.
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Without going into a long detailed story, I originally moved away from NY because I had an abusive husband, which is no longer a threat since he moved back to his country and is banned from the US! Thank you for writing to my blog.
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Yes, I guess your right and some of the questions do shock the hell out of me, but I go with the flow just like everything else in life. One thing I can tell you is that since I have joined this site, I have learned OHHHHHHHHHHH SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much......And that ain't a lie....LOL Thank you for responding to my blog! And Bless you also.
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Computer died and just not the same on a Laptop...lol Hopefully the computer will be back by the end of next week as long as HP gets there act together....LOL BTW...Thanks for thinking about me and I am fine!
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Hey Suzi and thanks for writing on my blog, I know that time will only tell and I hope I dont wait too much longer to make a decision, hopefully by early Spring I should know. You have a great day!
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hello welcome in mine you have much for me circle of friends joy bereitet.ich is happy. you are a wonderful women. much thank.
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Thanks for reading my blog.
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Unique u are, but the times u have faced is not unique. Being born human brings the wrath of the gods via the provision of complexities in life. In our part of the world the saying goes that it's better to have brimful of problems rather than be a beggar with no problems. Family and belonging play a big role in human satisfaction. The feeling of being wanted. U remained without an address to people who luvd u for a long time. Getting back into the fold will take time. Do what ur heart desires and leave the rest to KARMA.
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Unique u are, but the times u have faced is not unique. Being born human brings the wrath of the gods via the provision of complexities in life. In our part of the world the saying goes that it's better to have brimful of problems rather than be a beggar with no problems. Family and belonging play a big role in human satisfaction. The feeling of being wanted. U remained without an address to people who luvd u for a long time. Getting back into the fold will take time. Do what ur heart desires and leave the rest to KARMA.
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1 post 4/17/2008 5:01 pm |
I have not been in the exact position you are/were in but I have had my problems in life.But remember one thing. You should try to help your family but when all is said and done and they have passed on. You will still be here. Therefore do whast you can but do not do what will leave you out and alone starting all over again.
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