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Poems post #20
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Poems post #20 The Arms of Sleep I want to stay in dreamland. To lose myself in the arms of sleep. Where everything is as I want it to be. Where I am sure that you love me. I want to float in the realm of happiness. Where no problems can exist. Far away from the nightmares of my reality. Where tears are not known at all. I want to live in my fantasies. Where we are together. Where you'd never hurt me. A heart cannot be broken here. Floating on cloud nine. Far away from my troubles. Safe in your loving embrace. Where my head rests above your heartbeat on your chest. I can't take the pain in wakefulness. Trying to sleep every second I can. Live in my dreams where I am loved. Where you would never cheat on me. But eventually I must surface from peacefulness. Face that you hide behind a mask of lies. That you are just playing a game. I open my eyes to the harsh light of day. copyright 2006 ~~~~~ Flashbacks As I sit alone in my room. Listening to music filling my veins. I flashback to what we used to be. The nostalgic memories make me want to go insane. All your sweet words come crashing back. The man I loved, how wonderful he seemed. I was suspended in one ecstatic moment after another. I felt happiness I had only ever dreamed. My heart swelled with how much I loved you. The blood in my veins hummed in song. I breathed you into my soul with every breath. I never thought you'd tell me "so long." It all came crashing down around me. The day you told me goodbye. You said you had never loved me. That it was all just a lie. I shed tears of pain and sorrow. My body wracking with every drawn breath. Saying over and over "this can't be real." My heart and soul felt like death. I curled myself into a ball. Wishing my body to die. The pain was tearing me apart. My small release was tears running from my eyes. To think it was all just a facade. Another game you like to play. To think that you found it amusing. Me believing all the words you say. While it kills me to accept you never cared. That it was all just to you fun. By remembering, I have seen what a jerk you really are. That it is so obvious you will never be the one. copyright 2006 ~ * ~ Journey Different places. Nameless faces. A new journey. An adventure for me. Away from home. Travelling alone. To places I've never been. My fight with fear to win. The rush of people everywhere. Some to here, some to there. Each has their own tale to tell. Some have goods to sell. Excited, yet nervous of the situation. Anxious to get to my destination. Shocked I'm actually doing it. Proud I have the courage to go through with it. Countless miles left behind. So many sights to process in my mind. Heart beating erratically, body starts to shake. But a calmness is what is left in the wake. Finally arriving where I'm meant to be. A sigh of relief runs through me. The journey is over, adventure now done. Now it's time to have some fun! copyright May 21, 2006 ~ * ~ Freeze Me From The Inside Out Freeze me from the inside out. So I can no longer feel the pain. Freeze my heart pumping away. The blood standing still in my veins. Freeze the tears flowing out of my eyes. Making a river down my cheeks. Freeze the pain so I can no longer feel anything. Driving me to insanity. Freeze the breath that passes my lips. Stilling the movement of my chest. Freeze it so I am no longer hurting. So I can finally rest. Freeze my soul shimmering inside me. Each movement cuts like a knife. Freeze my aura hovering around me. Its color is black with strife. Freeze my emotions that ride a rollercoaster. So many ups and downs. Freeze my face so it stops getting a workout. Not enough smiles, too many frowns. Freeze me from the inside out. So it doesn't hurt to live. Freeze every sign of existence. I have nothing left to give. copyright May 22, 2006 ~ * ~ The Fall I fell so hard. I fell so far. I didn't see it coming. So quick like a shooting star. My heart took the plunge. Without me knowing. It wanted to be yours. Surprised, to you it would be going. It landed in your hand. A fragile organ beating. It gave itself so trustingly. The moment of our first meeting. But you closed your hand around it. Crushing it in your fist. The blood seeping through your fingers. The reasons you didn't feel the same, a long list. Maybe if I had known what was happening. I could have stopped from falling. Maybe if I had realized I was going to love you. I could have stopped my soul from calling. But it's too late now. My heart is crushed. It's used to being broken. But why does it have to hurt so much? Copyright May 23, 2006 I sent an Angel to watch over you last night, it returned in a hurry. I asked why, it said "Angels can't watch porn." Thanks for fucking traumatizing my fucking Angel! Don't bother trying to figure me out. Not even the little voices in my head understand me. It's pointless! |
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Thanks!  I sent an Angel to watch over you last night, it returned in a hurry. I asked why, it said "Angels can't watch porn." Thanks for fucking traumatizing my fucking Angel! Don't bother trying to figure me out. Not even the little voices in my head understand me. It's pointless!
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