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Posted:Nov 16, 2020 5:20 pm
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So for my I’m either in our out, for me there is no middle ground, feel like how can you be a gurl but want to peg another?
Also why would you go to all the effort of dressing and looking like a gurl and now swallow?
So I know my choices aren’t for everyone. But I feel like this has been a very slow process for me been dressing from an early
Age over the years it’s just got more extreme
Think I can honestly say I can go without a cock climax for weeks but there isn’t a day that goes by I don’t enjoy an anal climax
Slow but sure is the way forward so after using chastity I know I love frustration and anal is my desire
So for me it’s the little things that count such as painting my nails and toe nails I’m so into submissive I would like to be locked
Into a dress and heels
Hold on guys I know what your thinking but there should only be one hard cock in a bedroom so work with me and remove my
Desire, replace my chastity with cutting sure I would love to be castrated, if you desire me somewhat cheaper would settle on
Alcohol injections, I know what a guy desires and I’m happy to do this for you!!
I want you to take charge I need to be restricted I need a bull, so you want to get into my panties? I won’t you this is such
A huge step and one I’m willing to take
So bondage is a huge plus would love to get ready for you and lock myself into a dress and heels and meet you at the door
If I’ve not completed my chores maybe you would like to spank me? If I did good you could remove my dress and heels and
Reveal my sexy underwear
I know what I an not quite a woman but less of a man, I’m not passable and my arse has been abused but all I desire is cock
I know during oral you may get excited and force me onto you, and when your behind me don’t hold back and anal climax is
My desire while you enjoy me I expect to enjoy many climaxes baby make my body quiver !!
So as I develop I’ve swapped my 440ml can to a litre can gurl need to please her guy!
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Chemical castration via alcohol
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Posted:Nov 15, 2020 4:51 pm
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Guys is all in the detail without getting smutty we both know what you desire a gurl to do and there isn’t much you can ask of I’ve not done myself
Castration don’t just change my body for a more feminine one it also changes how I feel about everything
So my idea solution would be cutting 0% but second is alcohol injections it’s quick and easy, not without pain but after just a couple the damage is done!
Goes without saying I’m as ready I can be to become the gurl of your dreams, for me this is my next step, sure this is maybe the largest step I’ve taken and
I know this step isn’t something I can come back from, please share with me what you desire once I’m a sissy
Me I’m into restraint bondage would be a real plus, as is being retrained by a body part maybe by my pierced nipples, or maybe with a lockable butt plug
You need to know as a sissy your want and desire is what I desire need for you to enjoy me
So whatever you desire please talk to me as my goal is to become your sissy slave this is plan A there is no plan B I want this!!! Just let me know what you
Desire once I become you sissy gurl?
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Posted:Nov 14, 2020 5:06 pm
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Daddy I’m very nervous of being seen dressed also apprehensive of what’s come, but what I offer I do now myself
So I’m as ready as I can be, but do so feel like this is yet another step towards enjoying myself
My choice would be to enter into a relationship after my desire has been removed, this said think that if we can share
This it might just bond us more, love the thought that over the weeks your see me transition, thus far hormones have
Rendered me all but limp for the most part, and the thought of a needle in my balls once a week isn’t what I’ve dreamed
Off for all these years, also 0% sure I won’t enjoy you doing this me, but needs must a little suffering will aid me in
Becoming who I want be, after I will enjoy muscle loss, and aid in beast development who don’t like a puffy nipple
Right now my nipples are tender but the only thing I can claim is that on hormone I have less leg hair and reduced desire
I so worry I will disappoint you, right now this is my main worry as I so desire share myself with you!!
Sure I do all this myself but who wouldn’t desire the first time your lover shoots jerk after jerk of warm cum in your mouth
Or the first time your not in control during anal, sure not sure there is a day that goes by I don’t enjoy an anal climax but
What I desire is feeling this time and time again can’t replicate a guys desire and feeling warn inside once you have,
I love the feeling of it inside me but I also like feeling empty after
I know what I offer I can deliver on just looking forward becoming an object of a guys desire and I’m so into kinky
Tie me up as you enjoy me, I’m into kinky so tie me up use spreaders or anything else
Into fisting? I’ve accepted larger objects so I would welcome fisting or working towards this, do you like what you hear?
My price is the removal of my desire to aid me in pleasing you what’s not to love?
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my story thus far
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Posted:Nov 12, 2020 5:10 pm
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So this is going to happen one way or another either I do it or I find a partner who will help me
I guess what chastity and hormones have taught me is that I’m a submissive, I enjoy being frustrated
For me this has been a slow process at first I dressed just because it felt good if you has asked be back
Then would I become who I am now the answer would have been no!!
I guess my demise was being curious, I cut a hole in a plank so limp I could put myself in but once hard
I was stuck till I was limp again I would do this dressed and the outcome was just self-pleasure
Then I discovered toys at first it wasn’t nice even painful but I enjoyed the feeling so this also got more
Extreme, then it happened I had a feeling the pain had turned into something else
Over the following months with practice this enjoyable feeling turned into an anal climax which was more
Enjoyable than my normal one, its like a head rush and once you arrive goes on and on!
Tired of doing this myself back in the day there were news groups cut a long story sort I found a guy he was
New to this also and was nervous I wanted more than I said I wanted he was a top
We chatted for a while and it was clear he just wanted to use me, this ended up as a standoff we agreed what
We both wanted but he thought I wanted more, in a last chance attempt I offered to wear chastity this way
He would be the key holder and would control the meet, we agreed and I purchased my first chastity device
For weeks I would wear it slowly extending the time at first it wasn’t pleasant but over time I got used to it and
Even enjoyed the pent up frustration to the point it was just normal to feel this way, alas this meet never happened
Was at this point I knew I needed a guy to give me what I desired and knew I would become a bottom.
So then I got to thinking what I would like as a guy and the first thing that came to mind was a blow job who don’t?
So my first time climaxing in my hand was horrendous but I took it in my mouth and then spat it out but over time
I got used to it then one day I swallowed and felt sick for the rest of the day but like everything else I got used to it
Then I thought what else would you like so I pierced my nipples and navel
One thing and one not to underestimate about chastity is that you are forced to sit to pee this make you feel so humble
In chastity it became painful to get excited but this wasn’t enough so I found the most extreme chastity this makes me
Just a inch long even as excited, so excited isn’t an option as the pain isn’t desirable
So now I want more I want to remove my desire once and for all, this can be in a number of ways
So would submit to a cutter or alcohol injection into my balls my desire is to feel nothing with my desire removed
I can become your bottom not sure how I would feel after, but the unknown is a huge turn on
Want a guy to enjoy all I have to over and expect nothing in return with my desire removed I’m the gurl of your desire
Use me as kinky as you like!
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Looking for a cutter
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Posted:Nov 11, 2020 4:18 pm
Last Updated:Nov 11, 2020 5:09 pm
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Can you or do you know anyone who could help me? i wish to be castrated
if you can't help do you know where i can look,
i know of a couple of places in America i can get this down but what with covid need somewhere closer to home
Please if you know anything would you please help me
I know what i want i understand this isn't main stream but i hope there is someone out there who is willing to do this for me or point me in the right direction
never have i felt so alone just need to understand me i want to fit in i want to become 100% bottom and just enjoy me, want the freedom to paint my nails wear sexy underwear and enjoy what my man has to offer
Thanks Guys means a lot
Sam
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Not quite a girl but less than a man!
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Posted:Nov 10, 2020 3:53 pm
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Guess this is something I need to work out myself, you see I know I will never be a girl
But I want to be less off a man, hence castration feel it’s drastic and the unknown and
This excites me too, either chemical or cutting would deliver the same result but I feel
A body mod is final..
This procedure is performed all the time for cancer, and it’s quick and easy to do lets
Face it having the snip is much the same but they leave the blood flow in tact
Found a place in America that will do this without any questions, like I said there are many
Castrated girls out there not to mention nulldo’s
Castration will reduce my sex drive and thoughts, also caused muscle loss, and make you
Feel submissive, reduction in body hair and breast development what not to like?
Chastity is great I love how it makes me feel, so right now I have real problems getting
Hard, at very best I’m limp at point of climax, which is progress I guess, also if I do feel
The need and knock one out it’s followed by a huge migraine so pleasuring myself is somewhat
Less pleasurable
So the worry is that once my desire is removed then my drive will be reduced but this just
Means I trade what I have now for anal pleasure alone and for me that a trade worth taking
I know this don’t appeal to everyone for me it’s a natural progression, not sure I want to go
The whole way and have reconstructive surgery, want to keep a little of what I was but commit
To who I want to become and embrace the new me as I develop into the gurl you desire
For me this isn’t about forgetting who and what I am but to show commitment to the way of
Life I desire, also excited to develop further into a gurl you will enjoy using as your sissy slave
Thanks for reading this blog if I’m not your kind of gurl thanks for looking but if you want to cut
Me or have someone do this for me then I would really like to talk more
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Castration or estrogen
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Posted:Nov 8, 2020 5:29 pm
Last Updated:Nov 9, 2020 1:25 am
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So I wear chastity and love the feeling of being frustrated so much so I would like to feel this way permanently
Chastity is great but isn’t a long term solution
So what I seek is something more permanent, something that shows some kind of commitment to this way of life
I see castrated shemales and I love the look, I also know the benefits of removal this will enhance my body further
Can’t tell you how many times I’ve attempted to take my own balls, at first with tight underwear sizes smaller than
I need but later elastic bands, would get drunk and tie them real tight, the pain is huge and thus far not been able
To handle it, but I am getting better my hope is someday I will succeed
Found chastity quite by chance and just love feeling frustrated I do understand that this is just on another level because
Once my balls are removed my desire will be gone once and for all and this may cause me to desire sex less
Information is few and far between it’s illegal to be castrated in the UK, but there is more that one way to skin a cat
So cutting would be my first choice, then comes banding then Burdzzo or estrogen implants guess this is up to you
So like anything you only get out what you put in, so I want to become feminine I do understand this isn’t without give
And take. Feel like I bring a lot to the table question is what will you do for me?
Thus far I’ve used toys, even large toys but I’ve not encountered an erect guy your desire is what I want, what with
Chastity and my desire to become feminine and the joy of an anal climax I need this so much
Use me as feminine this is a huge step for me. Want to be my Daddy I’m happy to suck your to completion
And have you bone me to anal climax
prove to me how much you desire me dressed and how much you want to be my first and how you want to expand my limits
I’m into light BDSM, bondage, captive slave, fisting, role play, needles, hot wax, golden showers, not into breath play or scat
So if your into enjoying me as I develop into the kinky gurl you desire lets talk please
So would you?
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so it's a trade
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Posted:Nov 7, 2020 5:04 pm
Last Updated:Apr 18, 2024 11:20 pm
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Daddy please forgive me you seem like a nice guy you seem to want and desire what I do, sure we could work things out so we both get what we desire
So I’ve been doing this for years dressing, and for the past year chastity, butt plugs and hormones
My hope was that the hormones would aid me in the development of boobs my nipples are more tender than they were and I’ve see a reduction in body
Hair but that’s it, Chastity is great love how I feel when it’s on excitement is painful so now I don’t tend to get hard even at climax
Chastity is great but it cumbersome and uncomfortable long term, the longest I’ve worn it is about a week its also hard to keep that area clean need to jam
Cotton buds in there to clean my bits, so I would welcome something else stronger hormones so I don’t need to wear chastity that also help me develop boobs
I know and understand the risk of banding or cutting but with my bits removed I would be forced to become you submissive sissy
With my balls removed this will reduce my testosterone and aid transformation, so I’m a late developer but what gurl wouldn’t want tender puffy nipples?
My clit is easy to conceal can be pushed in and taped to form that perfect v at my groin, great for leggings
So if your serious about owning a gurl and if you into kinky we should talk please so yes I understand the risks I know what to expect and I accept this just
Within hours I could be the sissy we both desire, relocation isn’t a problem,
I get this and understand to become you sissy isn’t without pain and suffering but I know after I can only get relief from anal and this excites me a lot
So will you do to me what I desire so I can spend my rest of my day pleasing you in the body I desire?
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Anything goes just enjoy me
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Posted:Nov 4, 2020 4:52 pm
Last Updated:Apr 18, 2024 11:20 pm
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So just today I saw a gurl restrained she had her nipples pierced and chained
She also had a machine providing he pleasure via a dildo
She wore chastity and when she cum this was pumped into her mouth and she
Was forced to swallow all she delivered
My first choice would always be to have my desire removed but I would consider
This kind of life style as a second choice
The only thing that stands in my way is how you desire to use me? You need to be
Kinky you need to take the lead and you need to desire me as female
make me a happy gurl
spunky kisses Sam
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Looking for a cutter
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Posted:Nov 3, 2020 5:52 pm
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so after many years of chastity and dressing in sexy underwear and all but a year of chastity my love of frustration has got the better of me
I found chastity quite by chance and love feeling frustrated but I desire more who wouldn’t anal is the gift that keeps giving
So if you’re a red blooded guy and into kinky we need to talk, but if you’re a dominant guy into a sissy then we should talk
But if your all of the above and would like to remove my desire first, want me to be you living sex doll then please say hi
For me there is no going back what with my love of chastity and frustration there can only be one outcome remove my desire
So if your into banding me, or having a cutter take care of me please lets talk! For years I dreamed of being a bride white dress
The whole works. But alas I know what I am, but this don’t change who I am
So I’m no novice sure I’ve used toys swallowed my own but thus far not been used by a guy just feel like my virginity is a huge
Plus,
Thank all you guys who want a one night stand I really do makes me feel sexy and desired, but I need to save my virginity for
A guy who gets me and desires what I do, what I desire is for you to remove mine in return for my cock virginity
Seems to me a clear trade remove my desire to enjoy the sissy I need to be
Can’t wait to share moments with you, need to swallow what you deliver and so want to feel your hardness seeking my
Girly hole. Want to feel you ball deep with nothing to gain
Cut me or band me then just use me as the sissy you desire
Spunky kisses Sam
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Transformation
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Posted:Nov 2, 2020 5:32 pm
Last Updated:Apr 18, 2024 11:20 pm
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So if you follow me you will know that Chastity and frustration is a huge part of my life now, hormones seem to supress my cock but inside my desire remains
So I do need to climax and I do via anal, why just because it’s a longer and more intense feeling that keeps giving
Apart from suppressing my desire a little and seeing less body hair and having tender nipples don’t feel like the hormones do much towards being where I want
To be, I love the look of developing boobs I want puffy nipples.
I do understand that dressing in sexy underwear is nice and I love the feel of this and knowing that you also desire me dressed sexy, but there is so much more to
All this, this lifestyle don’t come without pain there is waxing. Kind of know I gurl needs to work even harder to become the lover you desire
But I get this I’m willing to do whatever you desire so that you can use me as a gurl, think I’ve done a lot towards this and I know I have more to do but I’m up for
The challenge
So moving forward think I would like to make my frustration a little further, feel like I should offer myself as female and with this in mind I would really desire a guy
Who likes me as I am but desires me more as a female, so my question is would you consider banding me, sure this is a life changing moment but think it’s want I desire
So my balls are in your court! I would really like them removed I do worry maybe this is a step too far, feel like this is my future I know what I feel right now is desirable
Can only dream how I will feel afterwards, but no gain without pain right?
Maybe just maybe I will like what I become maybe I won’t but I’m willing to take that chance, just don’t know how I will feel once my desire is removed, thus far I’ve enjoyed
The ride maybe once my balls are removed I might feel different but that’s for me to worry about, my hope by then I will become your sissy slave
Life makes us the person we are can you make me the person you desire ? I’ve saved myself to become the object of your desire, using me as female will make me happy
I’m saving myself for the right guy spunky kisses Sam
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No mans land
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Posted:Oct 26, 2020 6:23 pm
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For I’ve crossed dressed at first for my enjoyment, but once I discovered anal all that changed once and for all
So then I looked at me as a guy would see me and what he would desire.
Before long I knew what I was and what I thought was expected of me as a female so I started get know the real
, so I knew what I used want and a BJ was top of the list so I started to swallow anything I could deliver
I discovered chastity and enjoyed it so much I remain in it most of the time love feeling frustrated and would pick
Anal over normal anytime
So feel like my choices aren’t what everyone would desire but this is where I am, so I looked at other things including
BDSM and I feel like I do need to suffer for what I desire
Seems to me that just the dirty is too easy there needs to be some kind of punishment before I enjoy myself not sure
What your into but make me your gurl and have me enjoy you
So I’m not stupid I will never be a passable female but I do want to act feminine, want to become your sissy gurl
Want to learn what you desire and really want to become the object of your desire
So right now I live in chastity and I’m taking hormones to reduce my desire for the most part I’m limp at the point of climax
That’s if I;m even able
I want to develop breasts think my hormones will do this for me, I so want to be your submissive slave and only get a climax
Via anal
So what do you desire?
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So much to learn I know this !
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Posted:Oct 21, 2020 6:07 pm
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So sure I’m in over my depth I don’t have now clue what is expected, but I do know what I desire and have stay true my desire
Totally understand what a guy wants and desires, hell at one point I desired the same but life has a way of changing things
A while ago I discovered Chastity quite by chance and since then I’ve grown to love feeling frustrated
So of late I’ve started taking hormones to reduce my desire nothing like developing boobs right? They are so tender so you up for a sissy
Like me? Want to use my both holes I need to feel a guys desire want to feel what It’s like to enjoy cock as a female
Don’t mind if you take another lover, feel like to get gain I should expect pain will you do this for me?
spunky kisses Sam
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