Choices and decisions
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Posted:May 6, 2021 5:12 pm
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My aim from an early age was become female, if I’m truthful I never really know where this desire came from but it was a strong desire
At first it was just feel something I couldn’t as a guy, this was sexy and desirable this in turn would excite me and I could pleasure myself
Dressing is and has always been my go place, anytime I was stressed, annoyed or frustrated dressing was my go place, while dressed
I entered my submissive side and life seemed less complicated
Dressing was my escape you might say my ultra-ego Sam was my happy place my feminine side my submissive side, so dressing became more
And more desirable
The more I dressed the more I desired however like any drug the more I got the more I desired it, and the more extreme it became but it
Also got more exciting
I won’t lie at this point I was confused but in the newspapers there were reports of M F trans this got thinking and at some point I though
That’s what I want so I dabbled with anal, lets just say it wasn’t a good feeling and not at all desirable !!
Thankfully I still enjoyed dressing and this got me thinking about what is was I was missing and before long I encountered it, I found a sissygasm
And I’ve not looked back for anyone in the know these are die for!
So now I wore underwear underneath my normal gear I dreamed I would be caught wearing sexy underwear and just used so I had no choice
this day I wish a van would pull up and I get bundled inside and used, guess this is my submissive side showing,
But this got thinking what would a guy desire from , I thought long and hard and it turns out you desire what I used and no longer desire
So my quest was meet a guy and experience all I did for myself but at the hands of a guy, I wanted become the submissive sissy of a guys desire
So I met a guy who was nervous I wanted too much so I offered to wear chastity if we could meet, chastity is yet another drug you see if your submissive
And deprived you just desire what you can’t have
This meet never happened but chastity was just another development, chastity meant I couldn’t no longer climax as a and I needed anal climax
Once in a while I still had the desire climax as a guy, thinking about this I understood you would want your sissy to swallow so If I got the desire to climax
As a I would swallow anything I delivered
So I know my choices has reduced the amount of men I may appeal too, but you have to be true to yourself and I’m a submissive an bottom a sissy
Someone once said to me there should only be one erect cock in a bed, and I tend to agree
So I’m a sissy I only desire to be used as a sissy gurl, I love to dress sexy and want to please my guy, frustration is a huge plus, what with chastity and
Hormones I find it very hard to get an erection, but I desire to become your sissy sex object
Won’t you frustration is my thing being deprived is heaven so if you desire to further kill my desire lets talk please
I know I’m not for everyone but if you can see a sexy submissive gurl in your like what I’m saying is yes please lets tal Are you confused? I know I am
But this is just another move towards serving as feminine
If your into this meet me at the airport take me to a cutter and once I recover use me as sissy there you go said I was kinky!!
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Another level
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Posted:May 3, 2021 5:32 pm
Last Updated:May 4, 2021 5:01 pm
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So I can’t help who I am and I’m unable control what I desire, for this has been a huge learning curve, if I’m honest it has been from the start
Like any other confused person I didn’t understand the world I was born into I’ve always identified as feminine just not sure I always knew it
I’ve lived my life as but my go to place is kinky female, sure you will understand now I want to remove the male from my life
Think over the I’ve come this point, for I just can’t back life is short so you have embrace what you are and go with it
I’ve learn so much about myself I know I choose anal over penetration, I also know I want be kept feminine just because I love how it feels
I get annoyed when I see a gurl spit seems if you’re willing become a gurl you need act as one so I learned swallow my own and enjoy
It, I embraced chastity because this made sit , I’ve not been with a guy but I do desire becoming more female I’m talking castration
So my question is will you castrate ? Into a submissive shemale who puts your desire first?
So I guess the balls and mine are in your court, just say the word and my balls are yours remove them to make the sissy I want to become!
not going to say i look forward to this one bit i know what we are talking about can't be reversed but this is what makes this exciting want to be the guy who makes become the gurl of your desire? i don't know how i will feel when my desire is removed but if you want to remove my desire lets do this please
In later life your not looking for a mate rather a sexual object who is willing to dress as you like and also act as female and deliver on your desires, i'm sure i could be this gurl you desire and i'm willing to risk my balls i can become the object of your desire, just castrate me and provide me with HRT and watch me change into the gurl you want, we can both enjoy what i become you into taking this trip with me ?
please use me as i wish to be used as sissy
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I feel like you shouldn’t have the best of both worlds
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Posted:May 2, 2021 5:58 pm
Last Updated:May 3, 2021 4:19 pm
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My journey started ago I loved the feminine form, I was fascinated by it think this is why I started dress
Over the dressing was about how it felt, and how kinky I felt dressing, if you had asked be back then would
I be where I am now I would have said get a life!!
For I’ve had a normal life dressing was my escape my happy place, I loved dressing and living another submissive
Life, seemed when I dressed I was transformed into a venerable submissive gurl, it was like walking on the wild side!
So at some point during I discovered anal at first it wasn’t pleasurable but slowly I learned enjoy it then one
I the jackpot I encountered an anal climax and my life changed!
Ever thought while your doing your thing she climaxes loads of times and your reward is just a moments pleasure well
The same can be said of an anal climax once you reach that point the pleasure goes on and on in fact it gets better the
Longer you encounter it
So from an early age I knew I was different I loved dressing and now I enjoy anal and I love how I feel at this point it was
Me doing this and I would quit after a few orgasms
So I got thinking what it would feel like encounter a guys desire! I would no longer control my climax and I would be
At the mercy of your want and desire this excited me so much
So at this point I knew I needed a guy inside me I needed feel his lust and desire and with luck I would encounter something
I’ve never had before, so I started looking for a guy and before long I found one but he was nervous he wanted know I didn’t
Desire more than him using
So for him I offered wear chastity during our meet so I purchased a chastity device and my life changed for the better in chastity
I feel frustrated it makes me desire anal even more!
So I got thinking what a guy may desire and I thought you would like suck you, we all know what happens when a gurl sucks
A guy so I learned enjoy the taste, yes that’s right when I wasn’t locked and I felt the need I would swallow my own so I’m ready!
This meet never took place but chastity, frustration took over my life with my love of dressing also there was one way this could
End
I don’t understand my urges I know I can please a guy, I know what you desire and with luck while you enjoy I will feel a little of what
I desire,
Can’t tell you how many times I’ve gone to bed and wished I would wake up female, my next best dream would be to turn up at yours
And have you remove me desire from the start
But we live in the real world most of the time right? I understand if you’re a guy who wants to enjoy me as sissy it won’t be easy nor pain
Free seems I may have to suffer to become your sissy once you remove my desire once and for all I forward to discovering my new body and sharing it with you!
Hope what you have planned is kinky based as i love to expand my limits, into Bondage, spanking, BDSM and anything you desire i guess because this is a trip we need to take and enjoy together
We can’t choose who we are we just need to accept who we are you into removing my desire for your enjoyment?
spunky kisses sam
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Learning all the time!
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Posted:May 1, 2021 5:30 pm
Last Updated:Apr 29, 2024 1:37 am
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Don’t underestimate how the simple affect of having to sit to changes your outlook on life and sex
Nor the effect of chastity, chastity makes you focus on what is important
Once your locked you desire intercourse more than ever, once you know you can’t you desire it even more!
I wasn’t born as female but I so desire to serve a guy as feminine I accept you want to swallow your seed
Once your hard again I forward to your hardness seeking my girly hole don’t hold back
I need to feel you inside I want to have you climax inside I want to climax and then feel your
Inside , someone said in any bedroom there should be one erect cock, what with chastity and hormones
This can’t be !! Want to keep and use as female? Would you consider castrating ?
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Research is the order of the day
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Posted:Apr 30, 2021 5:22 pm
Last Updated:Apr 29, 2024 1:37 am
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So seems me that chastity isn’t something mainstream in fact it’s classed as more extreme, there is very little information about it
If nothing else chastity has taught me I really enjoy frustration, you might say it completes me
From an early age I’ve dressed and enjoyed myself in sexy underwear then quite by chance after chasing a guy I discovered chastity
This meet never happened but I learned I enjoy frustration, right about the same time I encountered my first anal climax a sissygasum
This got me thinking what a guy desires and what he may expect,
So I watched clips one thing that drove me mad was that some gurls won’t swallow I just think if your willing accept hormones change
You body into feminine the least you can be is the best you can be and this includes swallowing what your man can deliver !!
Chastity is fantastic once locked you desire things you may not have thought of before love that in chastity I have to sit to pee never underestimate
The feelings of frustration
There is very little on castration seems to me once my desire is removed I don’t really know what to expect, I do know this will make me more feminine
I will lose muscle mass and become more submissive, I also understand this don’t come without some suffering but anything worth wild don’t come without
This, sure I accept were I am is reversable, and the next step renders me sissy, I don’t know how I will feel with my desire removed for good
What I am clear on is I wish to become the object of a guys desire. What ever this takes and if you desire the removal of my balls so be it
How will I feel afterwards who knows but I’m up to try are you?
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So I need a guy to take charge in the bedroom
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Posted:Apr 26, 2021 5:30 pm
Last Updated:Apr 26, 2021 5:40 pm
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You see someone once said there should only be one erect cock in any room, I’m done with that I no longer wish feel frustrated
Don’t get wrong I love feeling frustrated but I need move forward in my quest serve as female, for this happen I need
Undergo some things, none are desirable seems non are something you would pick if you had a choice
There is banding trust me this is painful and even more so when you bottle out, the pain you suffer being banded is nothing compared
So another option is injections sure this isn’t desirable but it gets the job done in a number of weeks the deed is done and I can no longer
Function as a , I don’t expect you understand my desire become a sissy
This said I hope you can enjoy the end result? Can’t wait be dressed in sexy underwear and swallow you in the morning, or spoon just
Feel your hardness seeking my boi pussy,
Can you handle a the sissy I desire be?
I'm excited become the gurl of your dreams want help ?
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I understand I need to suffer to become who I want to be!!
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Posted:Apr 24, 2021 5:17 pm
Last Updated:Apr 29, 2024 1:37 am
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Chastity plays a huge part of my life right now it’s how I can offer you what you want! This is very much work in progress and the whole process is slow
In chastity I’m deprived of sexual activity this causes frustration and this drives to please you, as a sissy I desire your wants and desire to complete
I’m into extreme but first I need to encounter a guy, in my frustrated state I’m as ready as I can me to enjoy you enjoying me!
I know I can deliver what you desire oral or anal I will blow your mind but for me this isn’t enough, you see my whole adult life I’ve done all I can to become
Your sissy, but my ideal man would like to expand my limits
Yes I’m talking castration how this happens is up to you? A cutter sure I would like to wake up female I won’t lie, this said there is something to be said for
Having to suffer for what you desire. So banding may be an option but my choice would be injections at first just one ball but after the other it takes weeks
Of alcohol injections to a ball, once one is dead you could repeat till I’m a sissy then just enjoy , my fate is in your hands don’t hold back because
Kinky is my thing
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Not sure you can just dip a toe
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Posted:Apr 17, 2021 5:07 pm
Last Updated:Apr 17, 2021 5:28 pm
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So my way of thinking may not suit everyone, you see for me your either in or out can’t have the best of two worlds
I watch clips of gurls who won’t swallow, I just don’t get this at all why undergo everything not to totally embrace this
Way of life.
For me your either in or out no middle ground, for me what excites me is the little things flashing a lot more skin than
Before, dealing with long nails, makeup and hair these are all things I will need to learn as I go
I guess I know what I am and I know and understand or I think I know what I guy would expect from me, this trip hasn’t
Been easy but what is? Feminine isn’t just dressing up, its about a whole new mindset, frustration plays a huge part you
Can’t underestimate what being deprived of a normal climax means,
Once you are deprived of something you desire it so much more even if you didn’t desire it before!! Chastity does this for me
Love feeling frustrated and how this makes me feel, and in a frustrated state I know I can serve you as female, I’ve trained myself
To enjoy cum, not anyone a guys but my own, the use of toys has given me an insight if what a guys lust may feel like and anal
Is so much more enjoyable, not to mention Chastity and hormones chastity forces me to sit to pee it’s very humbling at best
So I desire a guy who will keep me in chastity so my frustration grows for your enjoyment, would also enjoy bondage as I would
Really like to be forced to encounter what I must, BDSM also plays a part just because I feel like I should suffer somewhat to enjoy
The good times, for me sex isn’t just the bump and grind but the getting there also
Someone once said there should only be one erect cock in any bedroom and I agree with this I’m willing to become your sissy I will honour
Your body and be the best sissy I can be !!
I totally accept the unknown nor your wants and lust maybe you desire more from me I won’t say no! I’ve considered this being it me
Loosing my desire for good if you into this let’s talk as it excites me
Form me into the object of your desire I’m sure I won’t enjoy the ride but I’m committed to do this its about what i desire and what I'm missing out on
Spunky kisses Sam
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I have a few wants myself
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Posted:Apr 15, 2021 5:11 pm
Last Updated:Apr 29, 2024 1:37 am
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I want arouse you
I want remain in chastity or more
I want dress as you please ideally locked into outfits
I want to learn what you enjoy
I want to be used as feminine
I want to be humiliated
I want to become the gurl of your desire
I want to be tied up
I want to feel forced
I want you to expand my limits
Most of all I want you to use me and enjoy me feminine
I have wants can you tick most boxes then we should talk
Someone once said there should only be one erect cock in a bedroom
I agree but I don’t desire being hard I want penetration only will swap
And orgasm for a sissy orgasm any day!!
spunky kisses Sam
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Never underestimate what is involved
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Posted:Apr 14, 2021 5:03 pm
Last Updated:Apr 29, 2024 1:37 am
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So I don’t underestimate what is required of , can’t tell you how chastity changes your mindset just the fact I have sit pee is such a shock the system but it’s also so grounding
I do understand the processes needed become a sissy, I also know this will take a huge tole on my body and mindset but I’m ready !
Love the feeling of frustration and I really want to please my guy
For me it’s the small things flashing so much more flesh than ever before looking after your desire whatever this may be, Walking sexy in heels is challenging to say the least. Then there is
Hair and makeup not to mention long nails not sure how anyone copes with these,
I know and understand that the trip we are talking about isn’t reversable there isn’t no way back, this fills me with dread but also excites me so much! What I’ve done this far make me ready
For what you want and desire, I know I’ve done all I can to be ready for this, this said I know and expect bumps in the road, this said I’m committed to be the best sissy I can be for you
I just can’t wait to go down on you and look up and see your cum face and swallow what you deliver
I have no idea what you desire just want to become your gurl sure this trip won’t be easy but in life what is ?
I’m willing to become your gurl and service your needs whatever they are just want to become the best gurl I can be and keep you happy
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Anything goes Baby
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Posted:Apr 13, 2021 5:00 pm
Last Updated:Apr 29, 2024 1:37 am
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So I know and understand what a guy desires, I think I’m 0% bottom but I’m into anything kinky how kinky I guess is up to you
As stated I’m 0% bottom I now longer have the desire to penetrate anything or anyone, chastity and hormones have rendered
Totally sissy my question to you is how much more do you desire ? dressing has always been my go to place its where I feel
Having to flashing more flesh isn’t something I’m used to but I’m excited to do this,
So everything excites me hair removal being locked into feminine dresses, heels the thought of being controlled excites me !!
So sure I’m a sissy I love chastity but I’ve saved myself for you! Sure I have desire but I also know you desire a blank canvas so
Sure I play and get ready to encounter your lust and desire, do you desire me any thing goes just use me as fem
spunky kisses
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Think I’m into extreme
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Posted:Apr 12, 2021 5:04 pm
Last Updated:Apr 29, 2024 1:37 am
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So I dabbled with chastity like the CB600 it did its job and left me frustrated which is a huge plus if your expected to act as a female but for me this wasn’t enough
So I purchased a more extreme devices this kept my bits tight to my body, this included an urethral tube which meant it could be worn for a longer period
During anal play I encounter huge anal climaxes so this has become very desirable, anal toys are great but lacks the male lust and desire I seek
So anal toys are great I purchased a dildo I love the feeling of it inside me in fact I feel empty when its not inside me, recently purchased and expanding butt plug
It’s a expanding design you need to force it together to insert it but once in its not coming out without force!!
This got me into thinking what I desire as a sex object in return for a guys desire, so I would like to be kept in chastity full time to increase my frustration the fact I have
To sit to pee is very humbling, I would also welcome a locking outfit and heels, so I’m kept feminine at all times, also discovered they do a lockable anal butt plug
Being locked up into sexy gear is my thing add to this being locked up via a lockable butt plug just means your find me where ever you lock me up!
Right now I wear chastity under normal clothes I also wear my expandable butt plug no one would ever know as I go about my day to day life
If only this was enough I need more restraint into locking me up for your enjoyment? Chastity and hormones have made me so much less male this means I can climax
As male but for the most part I do limp, this hasn’t stopped me if I am able to climax I swallow what I deliver such is my lust to serve a guy
If your kinky we can talk further further feminisation this might include castration and or cock removal love to sit to pee
spunky kisses Sam
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Control
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Posted:Apr 6, 2021 4:45 pm
Last Updated:Apr 29, 2024 1:37 am
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So we both know this is all about control, you have a desire control another human being. You have a desire control them and use them for your pleasure
So unless I’m stupid think we both know what you expect of , your looking for a submissive gurl take care of your desire.
So right now I wear chastity so I understand the feeling of being frustrated and how this makes feel towards a guy and I love the feeling I would consider being
Used in this way, love the fact that in chastity I live in a state of frustration, as the key holder you could tie up and use further frustrate sure I don’t need
spell this out,
One thing I keep considering is castration I’m sure you understand the affects on my body having my balls removed. I would become even more feminine I would suffer
Muscle loss and I would no longer climax as a , I’m sure some guys will see this as a huge turn on?
So the easiest way is via a cutter have me arrive and just get them removed, or the second route is inject my balls with alcohol for a number of weeks before I loose
Them for good. At first I didn’t think this was an option, but the thought of suffering a little reach my goal has its own appeal
So I’ve been dressing from an early age think from the start I know what I was, over the I’ve discovered an anal climax this and the frustration of chastity makes
Feel like I want discover even more, hormones and chastity render limp for the most part, if and when I’m able climax I swallow my own
So I’m sure I’m right for you!! I will accept what you desire I know what expect and thus far I’m a cock virgin so if your into kinky can we please talk ?
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